One beautiful day in the month of
Elul, a stir arose among the town's residents: Prokop, the market guard, appeared on the street with a bucket of glue in one hand and a stack of colorful posters in the other. Behind him followed a gang of rowdy boys, and wherever he posted an announcement, the boys stopped and chanted in sing-song the lesson they had learned from their Russian teacher: "On such-and-such a day, in the hall of His Excellency the Count’s palace, there will be a one-time performance of the play 'Nora' by Henrik Ibsen for the town’s residents."
"Nora" was printed in large, eye-catching letters. It’s impossible to describe the powerful impression this announcement made on the young people of our town. To this day, that poster still stands before my eyes, beckoning and calling to me...
This was the golden age of the town's youth. At that time, we read books by Tolstoy, Gorky, Chekhov, and Turgenev. We spent long hours studying Russian poets and Scandinavian literature. The play "Nora," in particular, sparked intense debates—some of us justified the heroine, while others condemned her bold action. And here was the surprise: the famous troupe would be staging the play "Nora" in our town. I remember the great turmoil in my heart when I saw that the play would take place on Saturday evening, the first night of
Selichot before
Rosh Hashanah! Two conflicting feelings raced through me: should I go see the play, which my soul longed to witness, and in doing so cause suffering to my dear parents, or should I not go and forgo this great theatrical experience?
The gardens and squares emptied of our boys due to the fear of the
Day of Atonement... yet the desire to witness this spectacle grew stronger and stronger.
And Satan, who does not sleep, especially in the month of Elul, did his work. One day, when my parents were napping after lunch, the door to our house flew open, and a young woman, not from our town, came in asking for me. I was stunned and confused: in my parents' home, a stranger seeks me?!
"Devil's tricks," flashed through my mind, "this is the very 'matron' sent to lead me astray!" I told her it would be better for us to step outside and talk in the street. She agreed, and we went out.
"I heard you have works by Ibsen," she began in a ringing voice in her perfect Russian, "and I would be grateful if you could lend me a book for a day or two." Without much thought, I agreed. I went back into the house, brought her the book, and she thanked me, offering her small, delicate hand, and added that in gratitude, she would give me a ticket to the play at the theater. Then she left. I watched her retreating figure like a clap of thunder.
Satan had won. I was ashamed to lift my eyes to my parents. I feared she would return to our house to return the book in front of my family, and where would I go with my disgrace? And how would I get the ticket? Who would bring it to me? Why hadn't I said I would come by and pick it up?
That
Shabbat—the night of the play and the night of Selichot—was an anxious Shabbat for me. I wandered like a shadow, and the hours dragged on forever. I was anxious... lest, G-d forbid, during the Shabbat meal, the door might open and the "matron" would enter! If that happened, what would my parents say? What did I care about a non-Jewish woman, with a cross gleaming around her neck?
The power of Satan grew. After the
third meal, as dusk gathered around my father's house and people assembled, I slipped away and walked far from home. By winding paths and quiet alleys, I reached the Count's garden, approached the palace entrance, where the ticket booth was set up, and saw a large crowd—both Jews and non-Jews—standing by the window. The cashier, a young girl, shouted to me , "The actress so-and-so left you a ticket!"
The crowd, especially the Jewish crowd who knew me, stared at me, unable to believe their eyes: "The rabbi's son—and a non-Jewish actress?!" There were whispers and even exclamations of disbelief. On trembling legs, I approached the window, took the ticket, and with glazed eyes, not seeing what was in front of me, walked toward the entrance to the auditorium. And while I sat in the magnificent hall, full of light, I remembered that at that very moment, Jews were praying in my father’s house... and I was sitting here.
I trembled. I was ashamed to lift my eyes for fear of meeting the mocking and bewildered gazes staring at me from the aisles.
But when the curtain rose, I forgot everything. From that moment on, my eyes saw another world, a world where everything was good...